I’ve been in a funk.

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HEY EVERYONE, IT’S MEEEEEEEE! Finally. 🙂

So lately I’ve been struggling with sadness and dissatisfaction about my life. There’s things I want to do but can’t yet and it frustrating, sad and plain annoying. I’m irritated, especially at work, and don’t find life motivating.

I sound like I’m depressed right? I’m really not, it’s more like quarter-life crisis.

The one thing that manages to motivate and interest me constantly in food and especially vegan food. Still not completely vegan or vegetarian, but it just seems to pull me in more and more.

I’ve been making some incredibly delicious vegan food and I’m loving it. Too bad for me and my blog, I don’t have a good camera and absolutely no photography (or table setting) skills so I cannot put on display everything I’ve made. You’re just going to have to trust me. I have tried taking pictures of the food I’ve made but it never looks as good as it tastes so I’ve given up on it.

I’ve been so good about eating vegan, but oh man, I’ve been struggling with not having excess sugar. 😦 Booohooo. Of course there’s no-one I can blame other than me, but it’s still irritating. I’ve tried baking lots of healthier options and avoiding sugary things I would have gone for before and sometimes it works. But the other times I walk by a pick and mix isle and I can’t help myself. Needless to say, my weight hasn’t gone down as much as I thought it would have. Luckily I my appointment with the nutritionist is approaching (Nov 26th) and I’m sure she will be helping me with my sugar addiction (and me not having a backbone).

Speaking of sugar and baking, I will try to develop a recipe for breakfast muffins with very little sugar. I’m going to try replacing sugar with dates and/or bananas. We’ll see how that will work out. 🙂

Take care lovelies,

Hanna

Food, food and more food!

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I have been sick for the last 4 days. Sniffling, coughing and sneezing, eeww… But although I still have a nasty cough, I am getting better, slowly.

A couple of days ago I went to meet up with the nurse helping me with my weight loss. We talked mostly about IBS and the psychological aspects of losing weight (or not losing it) but she finally was able to write a referral to a nutritionist, yay! Tomorrow I will make an appointment to meet up with her for the first time. I am so looking forward to meeting her. I hope she’s going to be my kind of a person, a no bullsh*t type of professional, who doesn’t speak down or patronize me. I hope to gain knowledge and support from her.

Right now food has taken over my life. I suppose that is how it always is when you try to lose weight, but not only that, trying to keep away painful symptoms of a digestion problem. The hardest part for me right now is to figure out where to get my protein when I don’t want to eat meat, and beans, peas, lentils and such, give me stomach issues. Soy of course, but I don’t only want to live on soy. And I freaking love beans. Today I ended up making bean curry for dinner, even though I know it makes me bloated and achy. But boy was it yummy. Seriously…. I guess the nutritionist will be able to give me some ideas on what to eat to get enough protein and still avoid stomach problems.

I haven’t gotten too many followers yet and I don’t know if anyone is interested in hearing what I eat on daily basis, but I will tell you anyway. Here’s what I’ve eaten so far today:

8:30 Smoothie (3 bananas, big fistful of baby spinach, 4 dl water, 3 dl almond milk, teaspoon of vanilla and 1 tablespoon of coconut sugar)

11:00 A big salad (lettuce, baby spinach, tomato, cucumber, avocado, spices and a tablespoon of olive oil), 2 slices of crispbread withmargarine on top, 3 dl water

14:00 About 2 dl of grapes, a banana and fistful of oat cheerios to snack on, 3 dl water

16:30 4 pieces of Toblerone chocolate

17:30 A big plate of rice, vegan bean curry, cucumber slices, 3 dl water

I am not happy about the chocolate (obviously it’s not vegan and it’s fatty and sugary), but oh well… We still had some left in the closet from the cruise (5 days ago). I have to be happy about having not devoured it right away when we bought it, but instead enjoying a piece here and a piece there over several days. I would have never ever been able to do that before. So GO MEEE! 🙂 Now the chocolate is gone and I won’t be buying any in a while. Otherwise I’m quite happy with what I’ve eaten today. Looks like a good mix of carbs, protein and good fats and of course lots of fruit and veggies. 🙂

Smoothie time (yes, I drank all of it):

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A colorful dinner (those beans are enough for about 4 portions):

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Enough with the food already. Since my lovely spouse is visiting his aunt and uncle and I have the apartment to myself, I am going to enjoy alone time and just do me. I plan on going for a long walk with my dog (I’m gonna dedicate my next post to my dog, he’s seriously the cutest and most lovable creature in the world) and afterwards stretch a little bit while watching tv. Sound like a plan, right? 🙂

Ciao,

Hanna

Where to begin?

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I originally started my blog on another site but because the site was really bad, I just decided to start a new blog and just copy the text’s I recently wrote from the old one to the new one. So this was written on September 13th:

My life is a constantly changing state of being. At least it has been for the last several years. But then again isn’t everyone’s? I can’t think of a time where there hasn’t been some change, big or small, going on.

Right now I’m dealing with one major thing, my health. Well, I have been trying to deal with it for my whole life, but I have come to notice there is no try, only do. It’s hard to explain everything in one post without making it too long and incoherent so I will start with my current struggle.

Warning: Graphic content. I have had a strange stomach for all my life. Even when I was a baby my mother noticed there something strange about my digestion (I pooped A LOT) and all through my childhood I suffered from an unpredictable stomach. Let’s leave it at that. For the last several, about 7 or so, years I have gotten really bad stomach aches, burning spasms to be exact. They usually come during the night time, waking me up from my sleep and they would usually end only when I used the bathroom. I would also often be really bloated. The first times it happened, I was scared and thought there is something really wrong with me but when I went to the doctor, they were able to convince me I only had a “stress stomach” whatever it means. His only advice was not to stress.
So I learned to live with my pain and the awkward bloatedness. January of 2014 the spasms started getting worse and more frequent so I decided it was time to visit the doctor (different one, luckily) again. This time he took me seriously and to make a long story short, after testing me for several things he diagnosed me with having IBS (irritable bowel syndrome).

IBS is an annoying condition to have because although it is possible to control it with your diet, it takes time and effort to find out which foods suit me and which do not. I will not list all of the possibly not suitable foods for people with IBS, because it is a long list and if you, my dear reader, are interested you can google it and you will find a lot of information about it.

One of the biggest no-no’s is sugar (which I happen to love in any form, of course). And with this awkward transition I’m going to share with you my other always present struggle, weight loss (and/or maintaining a healthy weight). As a young child I used to be really thin, underweight even, but during the ever-so-lovely early years of puberty I started gaining weight. Of course a lot of kids noticed, and even though I was only roundish, I got teased because of it. My weight was an issue for me (and apparently for some reason for others too) all through my pre-teen and teen years and got worse in adulthood. During the last 10 years I have gone up and down with my weight from normal weight to obesity. Losing 25 kilograms, gaining 30 and so on and so on. Classic tale, right?

Well now that I have come to terms with getting closer to being 30 years old (I still have some years to go, wohoo), I have come to realize I really have to take care of my body before it’s too late.

For me the biggest problem is that having IBS and my stomach not quite working as it should, has a direct effect on my weight. Some issues that make losing weight and maintaining normal weight harder are occasional insomnia and PCOS (which I also have, but more about that another time). Having those issues affecting my weight and then my weight making the issues worse, it is just a damn annoying vicious circle. That is why I have decided to take this one step at a time. I have already gotten better sleeping habits, so the next step is to work on my diet which should be friendly to my ever so delicate guts and make me lose kilos, and when I lose weight it should help keep my PCOS in check. TADAA, problem solved!

Ok, it’s more easily said than done, BUT I will do it!
And I am taking you guys (if someone’s reading this) through this journey with me!

Love,

Hanna