Celebrating 5 years together!

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Originally posted on September 15th 2014:

Last week it was me and my boyfriend’s 5th anniversary. On the day we exchanged gifts and spent some quality time together on the couch, but saved the bigger celebrations for the weekend. On Sunday went to a spa in Tallinn, Estonia. We took the quickest cruise ship from Helsinki to Tallinn, and the trip took 2 hours. The first part of our first day in Tallinn we spent in the old city, which was beautiful and offered a lot to see and experience. We also enjoyed a lovely early dinner there. The second part of the day we spent at the spa, relaxing in a hot tub, for the most part. After that we were so tired, that we almost instantly fell asleep in the cozy hotel bed. In the morning we ate at the hotel’s nice breakfast buffet and afterward decided to go shopping for a while before checking out and leaving Tallinn behind us.
The trip, though short, was such a nice break from the sometimes boring everyday-life. It was a really lovely way to celebrate our 5 years together.

Now that we’re back and in our own bed, getting ready to sleep (and trying to face the reality of having to go to work tomorrow), I am thinking about my future as a healthier and hopefully thinner person. It is looking very bright to me. I am feeling so very confident of myself and my ability to commit to healthier eating habits and that is partly because even though we did buy (and eat) some chocolate on our trip, I managed to enjoy it sensibly and not stuff my face with it like there’s no tomorrow. I made a lot of great food choices on the trip and even at the breakfast buffet I kept the portion sizes reasonable. And you know, we fat people love buffet’s (joking, and then again not).

Lately I have been interested in learning about vegan lifestyle, and trying out vegan cooking. No, I am not fully going to commit to the lifestyle (at least yet) BUT I little by little have gotten friendly with the idea of using no or very little meat or dairy products. I have been a vegetarian before for a couple of years, but I did eat eggs and dairy. Most of my life I have been a omnivore though. The thing is, I am really getting tired of supporting maltreatment of animals (and our planet), by eating meat and dairy. Also I don’t even like meat that much… I do enjoy my cheese though!
I have decided to cook vegan 5 days a week and on weekends let myself eat meat and dairy if I feel the need to or am in a situation where it is offered. If after a while I feel comfortable with the thought of going vegan full-time, I will do that. But even if I can’t, I am and will be happy with cutting the meat and dairy products down drastically and I am absolutely sure my body will agree with me on that.

I am meeting up with my lovely nurse tomorrow, and I will have to see what she says about my plans. :) I’ll write about it later this week.

I wonder if anyone is interested in reading my food diary if I were to keep one for a week or so…?

Ciao,

Hanna

Where to begin?

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I originally started my blog on another site but because the site was really bad, I just decided to start a new blog and just copy the text’s I recently wrote from the old one to the new one. So this was written on September 13th:

My life is a constantly changing state of being. At least it has been for the last several years. But then again isn’t everyone’s? I can’t think of a time where there hasn’t been some change, big or small, going on.

Right now I’m dealing with one major thing, my health. Well, I have been trying to deal with it for my whole life, but I have come to notice there is no try, only do. It’s hard to explain everything in one post without making it too long and incoherent so I will start with my current struggle.

Warning: Graphic content. I have had a strange stomach for all my life. Even when I was a baby my mother noticed there something strange about my digestion (I pooped A LOT) and all through my childhood I suffered from an unpredictable stomach. Let’s leave it at that. For the last several, about 7 or so, years I have gotten really bad stomach aches, burning spasms to be exact. They usually come during the night time, waking me up from my sleep and they would usually end only when I used the bathroom. I would also often be really bloated. The first times it happened, I was scared and thought there is something really wrong with me but when I went to the doctor, they were able to convince me I only had a “stress stomach” whatever it means. His only advice was not to stress.
So I learned to live with my pain and the awkward bloatedness. January of 2014 the spasms started getting worse and more frequent so I decided it was time to visit the doctor (different one, luckily) again. This time he took me seriously and to make a long story short, after testing me for several things he diagnosed me with having IBS (irritable bowel syndrome).

IBS is an annoying condition to have because although it is possible to control it with your diet, it takes time and effort to find out which foods suit me and which do not. I will not list all of the possibly not suitable foods for people with IBS, because it is a long list and if you, my dear reader, are interested you can google it and you will find a lot of information about it.

One of the biggest no-no’s is sugar (which I happen to love in any form, of course). And with this awkward transition I’m going to share with you my other always present struggle, weight loss (and/or maintaining a healthy weight). As a young child I used to be really thin, underweight even, but during the ever-so-lovely early years of puberty I started gaining weight. Of course a lot of kids noticed, and even though I was only roundish, I got teased because of it. My weight was an issue for me (and apparently for some reason for others too) all through my pre-teen and teen years and got worse in adulthood. During the last 10 years I have gone up and down with my weight from normal weight to obesity. Losing 25 kilograms, gaining 30 and so on and so on. Classic tale, right?

Well now that I have come to terms with getting closer to being 30 years old (I still have some years to go, wohoo), I have come to realize I really have to take care of my body before it’s too late.

For me the biggest problem is that having IBS and my stomach not quite working as it should, has a direct effect on my weight. Some issues that make losing weight and maintaining normal weight harder are occasional insomnia and PCOS (which I also have, but more about that another time). Having those issues affecting my weight and then my weight making the issues worse, it is just a damn annoying vicious circle. That is why I have decided to take this one step at a time. I have already gotten better sleeping habits, so the next step is to work on my diet which should be friendly to my ever so delicate guts and make me lose kilos, and when I lose weight it should help keep my PCOS in check. TADAA, problem solved!

Ok, it’s more easily said than done, BUT I will do it!
And I am taking you guys (if someone’s reading this) through this journey with me!

Love,

Hanna